70.

And it must have been because

you grew up reading

and I grew up playing

that you were okay with our time together

being just a shade of love,

like your "literary crushes" you called them.

i LOVE Zooey you would say,

and I would comply....

You were okay with talk

and text

and time

defining ours,

because you grew up reading.

You typed once,

I love you.

Sometime,

sometime soon

I will be able to fully describe how 

fucking horrible everything

about everything

about you. You need it.